I’ve made a resolution. Yeah I know, I’m early, it’s still December. I actually made it a few months ago and it applied to a specific situation. The resolution? To be me. Not the version of me I thought someone wanted. The real me. The complete me. The uncensored me.
I’ve decided to carry this over to the rest of my life. No censoring. If I feel the impulse to say, write, or send something I am going do it. I used to write and delete all the time. Now I write, delete, rewrite the same thing and hit the enter key. I still have second thoughts about most everything I say and do. No one said this was going to be easy.
So, how has it worked out? Even with all the continued second guessing, my confidence level has been raised. I’ve spent more time with friends, and become closer to people. I’m trying new things and putting myself out there in new ways, while wasting less time dealing with people and things that just aren’t worth it. My behavior has changed in other ways too. All those things I’ve wanted to do? I’m doing them.
So, what’s in it for you? Well, there won’t be any surprises from me. What you see is what you get. Like me now? Then we’re set. I’m not going to shed a mask and reveal the real me in the future. Don’t like me now? Then we’re set. You won’t waste your time, only to be disappointed later on.
Although, I do have to say that when I see a typo in something I’ve sent or posted, I have doubts about this whole thing.