Category Archives: Post

The HS Well

Posted on March 2, 2018 by Melissa

I am a middle-aged, childless, divorced woman. I have choices. I can become a crazy cat lady. I can be a bitter old scary witch-woman. I can spend my days swiping and getting dick pics. I can go on awkward … Continue reading →

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Want

Posted on October 3, 2016 by Melissa

This started out as a note to an individual person. But then I realized it wasn’t just about us, it’s about all my relationships and life in general. I’m at a place where (although sometimes I momentarily forget) I am … Continue reading →

Posted in Post | Tagged confusing, connection, fierceness, frustrating, fun, honesty, mess, overwhelming, reality, senual, touch, want | Leave a comment

Reset

Posted on February 27, 2016 by Melissa

When I moved a few years ago, it was a pushing of the reset button. And not some random will I end up among the dinosaurs or stars unknown reset. It was to a specific time and place for specific needs … Continue reading →

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Life

Posted on February 12, 2016 by Melissa

My life just ain’t workin’ for me. So, it’s time for a change. But the thing is, this life that isn’t what I want it to be is the result of a change. I know what I want, just not … Continue reading →

Posted in Post | Tagged all of the above, financially stable, friend, gardening, helping, know what I want, learning, life, music, no promises, wanted, worthy | Leave a comment

Hindsight

Posted on February 9, 2016 by Melissa

Hindsight is a bitch. It pretends to be a friend, knowledgeable and understanding. But it’s really worse than Regina George. Making you feel stupid and foolish. It’s supposed to help you learn, make better choices in the future. But for … Continue reading →

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Hope

Posted on December 6, 2015 by Melissa

When my ex and I lived together I always had at least 45 good minutes a day. From 5:30 to 6:15 weekday evenings. No matter what came before nor happened after, those were content moments, sometimes the best of the … Continue reading →

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Process

Posted on December 1, 2015 by Melissa

I need to process things (psychologically speaking, it’s not like I make American cheese). “Hang on, let me process that.” The preceding sentence has come out of my mouth, often, and not as a joke. I need to think, feel, … Continue reading →

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Feels

Posted on December 1, 2015 by Melissa

I feel all the feels. I used to apologize to others and degrade myself for this. I thought it was a flaw. Um, wrong. So wrong. Yes, I hurt tons, but I forgive just as much. I experience deep sadness…and … Continue reading →

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Choices

Posted on November 17, 2015 by Melissa

Peter has his Lost Boys. Are there the Lost Girls too? Because I know there are Lost Middle-aged Women. Well, at least one. I had a nice, snotty cry the other night about my choices and how each one seems … Continue reading →

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Isolation

Posted on November 6, 2015 by Melissa

Almost a month ago I cracked my clavicle and jacked my shoulder. So, pain. Varying amounts of pain for weeks now. Not fun. I’m also fairly incapacitated. Which equals frustration, disappointment, boredom, and, well, not fun. I have cancelled many … Continue reading →

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