I fall fast. And I fall hard. I am certain. Then I doubt.
I lose faith in my feelings. I don’t believe that someone else could truly love me. I wonder if I’m forcing something that isn’t real. I guess how long it will be before I get my heart broken. I question if (when?) I’ll sabotage something good.
And that’s all if the object of my affection gives affection back.
I guess it all boils down to this: what is love anyway? What’s the difference between “love” and “in love?” Is there something specific that causes us to fall in love? Can it be instant, like love at first sight? Will it sneak up and surprise you after awhile? Does it happen differently for other people? How do you KNOW when it’s real? And even if it is real, is it worth it?
I do believe that last question, my friends, deserves it’s own post…someday.
(I hope it’s not.)