Sensitive. Needy. Envious. Honest. Insecure. Empathetic. Doubting. Jealous. Outspoken. Emotional. Self-conscious. Passionate.
Yep, that’s me. Wait. Stop. Go put a “too” in front of all those words. Now do you see the problem?
All those “toos” mean I get hurt…a lot. So, I want to change. I’ve worked to change. I put myself in situations where I have to change. I spend time with people who help me change. But how much is enough?
I want to be me. To do that, I need to manage the hurt so I’m still willing to show my true self. But I can’t also transform the core of who I am and become someone I’m not. How do I find this happy medium? There has to be a way to become more what I want to be while still keeping the parts that I like.
Also, those situations I put myself in? I need to figure out how long to stay in them, or how to adapt them so they strengthen instead of demolish me. And those people who help me? I need to keep those relationships healthy and honest.
I want to become the perfect me. ‘Cause I think I’ll really like her.